Backstory:

My husband and I have been married since May of 2007. I always felt and knew that I wanted to be a mother. So getting married at the age of 23, I felt like I had a lot of time to become a mother. I thought things would work so that could happen. But here I am in my early 40’s and that blessing never happened for me. I have learned that sometimes in this life the things we think we need are not granted to us. Then we might feel anger for not receiving those blessings. But I need to be grateful for my blessings and just not focus on the things I am lacking but focus more on my many blessings.

My Wishing Well

I realized lately that I think a lot about things that I don’t have and things I think I need,

Some days I wish some parts of my life would change with all possible speed,

Yes there are times when I feel like life isn’t fair and to heaven I plead,

And sometimes I feel on my darkest days that because my wants are not met, all my heart does is bleed.

I’m sure that most people feel like this from time to time,

And I’m also sure that being human, that feeling is not a crime,

I know there are days when I feel like my challenges are so hard that they constantly feel like mountains I have to climb,

And for all my hard work some days it feels like I don’t even earn a dime.

I also think that I just need to learn to enjoy my life and remember that I am blessed,

Yes there are things I wish I could change but maybe that’s why this life is a test,

And yes there are some things that I might never have and my heart will be broken in my chest,

But maybe those things that break me will also be the things that make me stronger than I would have guessed.

I do have so many blessings, too many to name,

I’m sure that sometimes you feel the same,

We are here on this earth to learn and that is the name of the game,

And there are also many wonderful blessings that if we are faithful we will be able to claim.

I have decided that I need to have more gratitude,

And some days I definitely need to change my attitude,

Most days I try my hardest to increase my mind’s aptitude,

And sometimes my challenges have a huge magnitude.

The Takeaway: Sometimes things don’t work out like we thought they would in our lives. But we need to trust in our Heavenly Father that He has a plan for us that is bigger than our plan for our lives. He will work out our lives for our good.