life | Faith Centered Inspiration

Backstory:

My husband and I have been married since May of 2007. I always felt and knew that I wanted to be a mother. So getting married at the age of 23, I felt like I had a lot of time to become a mother. I thought things would work so that could happen. But here I am in my early 40’s and that blessing never happened for me. I have learned that sometimes in this life the things we think we need are not granted to us. Then we might feel anger for not receiving those blessings. But I need to be grateful for my blessings and just not focus on the things I am lacking but focus more on my many blessings.

My Wishing Well

I realized lately that I think a lot about things that I don’t have and things I think I need,

Some days I wish some parts of my life would change with all possible speed,

Yes there are times when I feel like life isn’t fair and to heaven I plead,

And sometimes I feel on my darkest days that because my wants are not met, all my heart does is bleed.

I’m sure that most people feel like this from time to time,

And I’m also sure that being human, that feeling is not a crime,

I know there are days when I feel like my challenges are so hard that they constantly feel like mountains I have to climb,

And for all my hard work some days it feels like I don’t even earn a dime.

I also think that I just need to learn to enjoy my life and remember that I am blessed,

Yes there are things I wish I could change but maybe that’s why this life is a test,

And yes there are some things that I might never have and my heart will be broken in my chest,

But maybe those things that break me will also be the things that make me stronger than I would have guessed.

I do have so many blessings, too many to name,

I’m sure that sometimes you feel the same,

We are here on this earth to learn and that is the name of the game,

And there are also many wonderful blessings that if we are faithful we will be able to claim.

I have decided that I need to have more gratitude,

And some days I definitely need to change my attitude,

Most days I try my hardest to increase my mind’s aptitude,

And sometimes my challenges have a huge magnitude.

The Takeaway: Sometimes things don’t work out like we thought they would in our lives. But we need to trust in our Heavenly Father that He has a plan for us that is bigger than our plan for our lives. He will work out our lives for our good.

Backstory:

I live every day with a chronic illness and autoimmune disease. This is something that no one really understands unless they go through it themselves. It makes it hard for me to make it through every day with the constant fatigue and pain in my body as well as other frustrating and annoying symptoms. The other day when I was thinking about my chronic illness, I had the words of the song from the musical Les Miserables called Empty Chairs at Empty Tables going through my head. I especially think these words apply to me with my health struggles: “there’s a grief that can’t be spoken, as the pain goes on and on.”

A Grief That Can’t Be Spoken

Empty chairs are at empty tables when you have a chronic illness

Because you feel like no one really understands the loneliness

Of going through every day with your body having one crazy symptom after another,

You try to let others know how you feel but they really can’t even though they are a sister or a brother.

There’s a grief you have to get used to

And that sometimes will make you feel kinda blue.

Chronic pain is invisible to most people outside of your body,

But you really wish they could walk in your shoes for a minute for them to truly see.

Like the empty chairs, others don’t see what hurts or what is missing

And you constantly wish for a doctor that could to your body be fixing.

Unlike most trials in this life, there is no clear ending to a chronic illness,

So you have to work with that kind of grief which sometimes steals your bliss.

But no trial in this life is ever wasted

Even though for your moments of hope you have patiently waited.

No matter how hard things get day to day,

There is always hope because of your Savior who loves you more than you could ever say.

Only Jesus can truly sympathize with what you are going through,

He knows how you are feeling at every moment and He will always be there for you.

Your grief and pain are never unspoken to Him,

And because of this hope you never need to think that your life is grim.

The Takeaway: We all have hard trials that we have to endure in this life. Our earth life wasn’t meant to be a piece of cake. Sometimes we might feel like we are all alone at a table all by ourselves with nothing but empty chairs around us. But we are never really alone and there is always hope because of our Savior. He has felt all of our pain and heartache. We can always talk to Him and He will understand exactly how we feel.