Me, even though I look normal, my body is going crazy inside.

Today I have been thinking of how human I am. I get frustrated with myself so often. I have an autoimmune disease. Some days are harder than other days for my health. I especially get frustrated with my body and its limitations.

Most days, I grieve for my old life and how my body was back then. But I just have to accept that this is my life now. I am constantly exhausted and in pain. I have so many other symptoms. This is something that no one knows what having a chronic illness feels like until you know.

So, some days even though I try to explain my body and my symptoms to other people, they just don’t understand because they don’t live in my body. Even people who live with me, have no idea what living in my body feels like. So, sometimes I try not to feel alone and like no one understands how I feel.

But I try to remember that there is hope because of my faith in Jesus Christ. He has suffered for all of us and he felt all of our pains and afflictions. He always understands how we feel at any moment and in any situation. So, I rely on that hope a lot, especially on my harder days with my health.

Also, I rely on prayer so much, especially when I feel alone. Through my trials, I have come to know for sure that my Heavenly Father is always there for me. He will be there for me at a moment’s notice. I know He will do the same for you.