Backstory:

We all have hard days and crosses we have to bear. I know I write about this a lot but having a chronic illness is always on my mind. Some days it disrupts my life in a big way and it makes me discouraged and depressed. On those days, I just want to curl up in a ball and throw in the towel. I had a week like that this week when it seemed like every day was a test of my faith. I’m not sure that I passed the test either because I felt like emotionally and physically I was really struggling. So yesterday, I was feeling especially discouraged because of the hard week I had. I decided to cry it out to my Heavenly Father and tell Him all of my feelings. I felt much better after that.

My Cross to Bear

My Loving Father in Heaven,

I know You are always there for me without question.

But Father, today I am really struggling 

With all the stress and chaos my body is juggling.

I know that You have a perfect plan for me,

But I wish that plan I could more clearly see.

Because I am wavering in my faith,

And today my trials seem too heavy in weight.

So Father, I pour my heart out to you literally in tears,

Because I know you have been with me through the years.

When all of my tears are dried up,

Please help me to fill the faith in my cup.

I know that you sent your Beloved Son

To suffer for everyone.

I can’t imagine what He went through

From my limited point of view.

He felt all of my pains and sicknesses that I have to bear,

And that much love for me feels rare.

Help me to never forget that You and Your Son are always with me,

And this thought should always fill my heart with glee.

The Takeaway: We all have days when we feel like the weight of our trials is too heavy to carry anymore. I think it is important to pour out our hearts to our Heavenly Father in prayer. He wants to hear from us even when we feel like our faith is weak. He can help strengthen our faith when we call out to Him. He sent His Son to suffer for our trials and troubles so we never should feel alone.